Life seems to be settling into a regular routine. It is so so wonderful to get up every morning to make Brian’s lunch. Sometimes, he even gets to come home for his lunch break. The girls love seeing Daddy during the day.
I have missed blogging regularly. I was looking through some old blog posts here, reading them, I realized how much fun I have blogging. Telling internet land about our adventures, mishaps, and lessons.
The Lord has been so gracious to us during this season of adjustment. We haven’t had Brian home this long in 5 years. At first, our lives had a honeymoon quality to it. But, as LIFE keeps happening, the honeymoon has slowly morphed into reality. HA! This summer seemed to last forever. It was wonderful. We had lake days upon lake days. We had movie days, followed by crazy cleaning days. But, through it all, we were dealing with something much bigger than us. Something that seemed to drown us. So, many times, I have tried to blog. But, it seemed like anything I could write was just full of miserableness and desirous of pity, maybe? I’m not sure. But, I wasn’t rejoicing in the Lord, that’s for sure. Now, it doesn’t really matter what that something was or is. As I have gone through this, I think I am learning more about myself and what it is I need to do in order to live a life more pleasing to the Lord.
I find it amusing that my theme for the year has been Choose Joy. Because, I tell you what, it is hard to have joy in your heart when it feels as if your very world is crumbling around you. Then to top it off, several other things happened that made me question if I even had any real friends, at all. I kept wanting to “confront” or “have a talk with” or “fix it, somehow, someway.” But, all those things were the wrong path to take. Thankful, God brought me to this verse,
The discretion of a man deferreth his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression.
People are people. And people will hurt your feelings. That is life. People will take offense, then wallow in it. Sometimes, it is just better to let things go by giving it over to God in prayer. Sometimes even daily. Only God can change people. It wasn’t until I finally got back to my daily Bible reading that my focus became clear once again. It is ridiculous really, to keep allowing this roller coaster of life to affect my relationship with Jesus. But, like the Israelites, that is what I do. Over and over. I am so so thankful for these verses.
This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. There are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
We have begun our school year with a bang. It has been marvelous, really. I am grateful to be led to a wonderful supportive homeschool group. I love seeing the girls’ delight in learning. It is fun. Hard work. But, rewarding, already. When we purchased this house, we had every intention of turning the guest house into our SchoolHouse. This is the first time it has actually been empty, so we were able to do that. We actually GO to school. I say “Good morning, class.” and they reply, “Good morning, teacher.” It is so cute. I am hoping to do a few homeschooling posts to show our way of doing school. At first, our way seemed crazy, but it is actually working. So, I am ready to share how we do things.
I am also in the midst of listing my signs in my virtual “shoppe”. So, be on the look out for that. That is exciting. I can’t wait to get that rolling .
And, in other news, my house is clean. HAHA. I have had many, many helpers throughout the years. Many. Many blessings of many hands, helping to get my junk cleaned out and/or organized. I finally have the house organized. I can’t begin to tell you how awesome that is. And you know who helped me? My girls. That’s right. What a blessing is that? Small in size and age, but powerful workers. We can get a lot accomplished when we work together as a team. You can’t eat off the floor or anything, but for once, my house has NO piles piled up anywhere. I am my mother’s daughter, in that regard. And if you know her or me, you would totally be laughing at that. For an example, my kitchen has been clean (including counters) almost every night. Don’t ask about the laundry, though. It is still a beast, or the never-ending story.
So, since the routine of life has allowed me to have nap times free a lot of days, I am hoping to put blogging into the schedule. I have some things I would love to do with this blog. I was praising and thanking the Lord this morning for all my blessings. It dawned on me, that if I have this platform to talk to people, I really ought to be using it to glorify Jesus. I hope I was encouraging in some way, today. I do like to keep it real. Most people appreciate honesty. I just don’t always temper it with grace in real life. Blogging gives me time to think, delete, and rephrase. I had an email from a coworker in my previous life this week. It was the most encouraging note. It inspired me to share more of our lives, and our little chicken farm, and whatever else comes our way. I have been praying and praying for the Lord to use me in some small way (other than as a mother). I think this is it. To share. To encourage others.
If your world does seem to be crumbling, ask yourself if you are totally being dependent on God. Are you leaning on HIM daily? Are you PUTTING ON the garment of grace, daily? Taking time each day, to get your sins under the blood, and refresh yourself in HIS WORD? If not, maybe you should.